Solitude song lyrics

I wrote this song to try out for a band. I never tried out for the band. I don't know if I ever really wanted to. I love writing songs and singing to myself but I don't know if I'll ever be a singer. But I'm not going to worry about it. Writing songs is a private joy for me, and I hope I always have the ability.
I wrote this song to a beat a band made that was on myspace. Its funny to write a song to a premade beat because your trying to match the beats to the words more then writing a song about a particular subject. The song, I think, is about God. Worrying whether God is pleased with you. Worrying whether God hates you, is angry with you, if he will accept you in to paradise. Trying to connect with God and having a hard time. These are the lyrics:

Switching the lights off/In the dark/Its hard to find/Your not mine/Switching the colors/Of the rainbow/Black and white is all that's mine/Its hard to find you/In solitude/Its hard to find you/When dark is new/Its hard to find/Hard to find/Its hard to find/Hard to find
Its hard to find you in solitude/I'm all alone and my mind draws a blank/Thinking about you/Makes it hard to think/Touching my soul/But your not there/Under the covers my heart is bear/Its hard to find you/In solitude/Its hard to find you/When dark is new/
Its hard to find/Hard to find/Its hard to find/Hard to find/Its hard to find you in solitude/
My time is near/And death awaits me/Is it fair to say/That you hate me/Its hard to find you/In solitude/Its hard to find you/In solitude/Its hard to find/Hard to find/Its hard to find/Hard to find/Its hard to find you in solitude