Every word you've said to my lonely soul

Every heart beat

And God knows 

I keep it to myself

Out of hopelessness

Not in Him

But in you

Not in sadness but in love

A burden not worth holding up

A treasure to deeply buried to care

A love that goes unnoticed 

Because it always there

A love that is unprecedented

At least in all I've know

Oh how I've seen it change

Oh how I've seen it grow

Oh how He knows

My hearts pain

A love I want so badly

The sickening pounding of my heart

Underneath the terror of return

Under a terror of longing

And belonging

The real fear of love being shared

The real fear of love being eternal

Knowing the pleasure of God 

Through serving you

Knowing the struggle of those honorable women

Those mothers of of mine

To love

And hold back jealously

In hopes of pleasing the Divine

Within your comfort

A worldly glimpse of paradise